☆Samantha☆

No matter how you pronounce, 'Sorry' seems to be the hardest word (oh yeahhh..... a song by 'Blue and Elton John')

Its so easy to say sorry in some situation (automatic sorry) For example, when you step on you friend's shoes, drop their bag, etc (simple simple stuff), you say sorry without even realizing it like :'OMG!!! Sori Sori Sori!!!' that's it..

BUT, when come to situations in relationship, in friendship or family.. Hell, saying sorry is like impossible.. Saying that word make you feel like you're gone from this world.. Why is that so? Is it because we love that person too much? Or is it because we feel embarrassed, as in if we say sorry, that person will think that : Ha! You lose!! I knew you are going to say sorry first and bla bla bla....?? Even saying 'I Love You' is much easier than that!!!! (I know its hard too, =p) I was in few situations like this before.. One of it was, i kinda argue with a friend (a close, or maybe best friend), after that we just did not talk for few hours, sitting beside each other! How awkward is that! Both of us felt so uneasy.. But we just won't say sorry to each other.. Although we did talk after awhile, obviously.. But up till then, we did not apologize to each other.. Haha.. At that time, i was unwilling to open up my mouth to say A WORD sorry.. Its as if my mouth has lotsa gold and treasure inside.. At that point, i was thinking: 'What for i say sorry to her? Ceh, its not REALLY my fault mar.. She should say sorry to me instead... If i say sorry then i loose already lor.. If i say sorry then she thinks im so soft-hearted and chicken lo.. Then maybe she'll laugh at me.. Then maybe she won't say sorry to me again next time and I have to be the one.. No no no, i should not apologize first...' I'm pretty sure that this is what she was thinking during our 'cold war' moment..
Another one was she was the one who IS wrong and she just won't apologize to me... ?????? wth...

Is it all because of impression? Air Muka? Water face? I don't know... =/