Yesterday was Malaysia's day.. Everyone was happy celebrating, it was the day everyone gathered to honour our heroes who fought for our country.. But it wasn't for me.. It was the day I lost someone whom I've spent my 22 years with, my beloved brother Sean..
He got involved in an accident while he was driving his super bike at Kuala Penyu road.. I don't know how it happened and what the story was about. I only remember how painful it was waiting for my parents' phone call to confirm the news.. Meanwhile, everyone prayed for him hoping that he was still alive. Here, I really thank all my friends, pastors, cell groups and leaders that prayed for him and encouraging me, calling me or messaging me to stay strong, from the bottom of my heart..
But i encountered God's presence.. While my parents were on the way to see him in Kuala Penyu Hospital, news said he already passed away.. But mum told me not to give up yet till they see his body.. When my parents arrived, she touched his body and it was still warm, even after 4 hours! There was a slight chance and so Dad yelled his name and kept pressing his heart, he was still unconscious but there was heart beat and shallow breathing.. But, things were not as good as i hoped for, he passed away at the end..
I was angry and I didn't know what to do.. But my bf and a friend told me, at least he waited for my parents to be by his side before he left us.. He was not alone at his very last breath, he had mum and dad to accompany him. And he died doing something he really love..
Yes, the feeling was very unreal, very vague.. I still cant accept that he's gone.. But I know for sure, he is in a better place now.. Kor, I promise to be strong, to take care of mum and dad, and shan shan.. May you rest in peace. You're forever my brother.. You're in a different world now but you're still in our thoughts.. I love you Kor..
Guess what Kor? We heard alot of good things about you from your friends.. They told us all the good deeds you had done for them.. It was good listening to all these comments about you. So many of your friends turned up at your last journey on Earth. I really hope you are free and happy where ever you are now.. Do give us some dreams to tell us about yourself okay? I miss you already..
